On The Sandman's Couch

By Matthew Kerber

sfgenreFive blocks from here is the street where Don was shot in the back by a cop, while he was sprinting away with a pint of dream. They saw him tweaking, looking up at the tops of the skyscrapers, lingering a bit too long on things, really considering them. You have not to do that, Don. You knew better than that, and you probably realised you knew better than that as the dream spilled, poured into your bloodstream which was pouring out of you and into the gutter.

This is the apartment building where Don got the dream. Our dealer lives here, I guess now just my dealer. He welcomes me. He’s just woken up. There’s a fresh metallic and honey smell of cooked dope hanging in the air. And he’s a bit hazy, but he smiles.

“I was in the middle of this huge park, Cam,” he says, big wide gestures with his hands. “You ever seen a tiger in a dream?”

I shake my head no. “So like a zoo?”

“Nah. It was just this big open field, and the only thing in it, the only thing, besides the grass, was this huge tiger,” he says.

“Never seen a tiger,” I say.

He whistles. “Meditate on it, man. I felt terrified, like anxious, just at first. But the tiger was calm, so I sat down across from it and we just watched each other for a long time. Hours. And then it rolled over and showed its belly and I woke up. Made me feel something.” He is shirtless. The track marks just beneath his right bicep are a red field of pinpricks from before you could smoke dream. My dealer has a good two decades on me. He was around before dream even existed. Smoked weed and did cocaine and occasionally heroin (occasionally). “But there ain’t no going back once you try this stuff,” he always says to soon-to-be druggies knocking on his door. Those were the words he dropped in my lap when I first met him. And he wasn’t lying a bit.

I’m addicted. We sit down on his new sofa, an air cushion that almost feels like levitating. He’s got more money than he knows what to do with, but he’s stuck in this dump of an apartment so he just drops it on fancy furniture and VR machines and glassware. He unrolls a package with ten vials from red to green to purple. “Clear for a deep sleep,” he says. He eyedroppers three drips out of a yellowish vial into a bowl on a slide attached to an intricate green glass Buddha. “Green for a path.” One drop. “Blue for elevation.” Two drops. He smiles at me, “And orange for intensity. And maybe a tiger.” Two drops.

He warms the bowl with a lighter carved out of fake ivory. “It’s a real shame what happened to Don,” he says. “Real shame. Sorry to hear it.”

I nod or say thank you or yeah, and watch him cook the brownish blue mixture of dope, near salivating, it’s really all I’m concerned with and I wish he would stop talking about Don and tigers and just shove the Buddha into my hands so I can filter him out and fall asleep and dream. He hands it to me, the Buddha face staring back. “Greens,” my dealer says and I inhale deeply. As deep as I can, I fill my lungs with the sticky sweet resin of sleep. I lean back and close my eyes. I think my dealer does the same, I can feel some sort of shift in the couch as he inhales and sets the glass down and leans back with me. Our eyes are closed. We relax and wait for sleep to come.

There is a great field. I meditate on it. There is a vast field. I walk out into the grass. I am barefoot. There is no treeline visible, just endless plain. There is no tiger in the middle of the field. But I see Don. He is naked. And I am naked. We meet each other and embrace. We lay down on the field and hold one another and watch the rolling clouds above us and somewhere else, on another vast plane perhaps, my dealer is finding himself with his tiger, but here in the middle of my grassland, I am addicted, and I am dreaming, but I am with my lover, and that is all that matters.

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About The Author

Matthew Kerber

Matthew Kerber is a 2016 graduate of the UNC Chapel Hill honors creative writing program. He currently resides in Durham, NC working as a support analyst and a bit-time writer. His fiction has appeared in Cellar Door and Rum Punch Press, and he is a recipient of the Bland Simpson Prize in Creative Writing.

Twitter: @mattkerber

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pixie willo 100Pixie is a voice actor, cabaret performer & slam poet From the Blue Mountains in NSW.

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